Emotive Language Runs in the Family

Does a strong imagination run in the family? What about emotive language? Or is it simply a product of a love for reading that builds the ability to weave a fiery tale?

You be the judge.

Below is a Viber conversation between my sister and I, after someone she met had treated her horribly (and inappropriately). I won’t go into details.

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Me I am cocking my eyebrow right now and being all ”oh no you did-t!” Waving my finger in the air
Sister Haha! I am all snarly with burning eyes
Sister In my mind screaming ”how dare you!” With fire and rage
Sister Standing in lava
Me Slowly starting to hover above the ground while your hair whips about your face?
Me And lightning strikes?
Sister And whipping up a fire storm
Me And the ground starts shaking and splitting
Sister While an inferno streams out of my mouth
Sister Cackling madly
Me With a low guttural roar that gets louder until glass shatters?
Sister Until the crescendo and everything is razed to the ground and nothing is left
Me Except ashes…
Sister A vast wasteland. Then I can pull my hood up and walk slowly away amidst the falling ash
Me HAHAHAHAHA I am holding back to urge to lol while at my desk
Me We just concocted an amazing tale just then. I saw it all.
Sister Same! I lived it
Me The hood thing really pulled it together
Sister Haha. I feel better now that I have had my imaginary fire-storm

Reflecting on Reflecting

I like to ask a lot of questions, and sometimes I annoy people with my random bursts of curiosity. In particular, I like to ask how people think they would react to an unusual situation. I don’t know why I’m so curious about it, but I guess I’ve always wondered  what kind of person I’d be if my security blanket was ripped away from me. What I don’t often question is things that pass by in a blink, or something that happened yesterday that I’m already starting to forget, or why I chose to do what I did at the time.

I started reading ‘Wild’ by Cheryl Strayed recently and I was amazed by the intricate details that wrapped the story together. Not only does she recount her harrowing experiences hiking for 100 days along the Pacific Crest Trail (PCT) of America – solo, I might add – but unlike my attempts at reflection, Cheryl details her hardships and her revelations along the way in minute detail. She talks about her failing marriage and the death of her mother in the lead up to her ‘spirit walk’ and how they have shaped her every thought and decision. She revels at the beauty of nature along her journey and realises she hasn’t cried once, until she finds herself ‘full’ of the world. Not full of sorrow or regret, just full of wonder at the world around her – the trees, the sunsets and the silence. Her journey really put life in perspective and I realise now that maybe I should pay more attention?

Reflecting on Cheryl’s ability to voice her thoughts on paper, I am a little more motivated to follow suit and apply her style to my own writing. In my university studies I am encouraged to reflect on my experiences and so far it is not something I fully excel at. My tutor’s feedback is usually on the lines of: “but HOW did you come to this decision? WHY do you feel this way? Have you QUESTIONED your conclusions?” And no, I don’t question myself. I don’t even think about why I feel the way I do about my studies, or anything I deem unimportant.

I am going to take some advice given to me over the weekend by a friend of my parents: “write everything down, even if it doesn’t seem important to you. When you’re my age, you’ll regret letting those memories go.”

Climbing Mt Kosciuszko (minus the ropes and picks)

I’m not exactly a spontaneous person. In fact, if a friend calls me and says “wanna go out tonight?” I have to say no because I have not had a significant amount of time to mentally prepare myself. So when my friend mentioned walking Mt Kosciuszko recently, I think I shocked us both when I said “let’s do it!” Granted, it took me a few days to plan, but the casual reference to Australia’s tallest mountain became a fully prepared itinerary – flights, trains, car and all.

Fast forward (I won’t bore you will details of my BO filled train ride and my 45 minute flight that felt like a long-haul) and it’s ‘the day of.’ At 6.30am, my friend Rach and I rugged up in 15 layers to defend us against the brittle 3 degree Canberra weather, and we hit the road with a brief but necessary stop at McDonalds to fill up on pancakes and coffee.

We arrived at Charlottes Pass (because we’re hard core and prefer to take the LONG route) and stuffed as many muesli bars and sandwiches in our backpacks. I think at some point along the way we had to remind ourselves that we were not about to embark on an extreme overland multi-day trek, but a 4-5 hour 18km round trip. Quite sadly, we had to leave our torch and hunting knife in the car and wind down our overly excited imaginations.

We set off on our adventure on a beautiful blue sky day with not another soul in sight. All we had was ourselves and the sound of gravel crunching under our feet. I think I made it half a kilometre before having to strip off my gloves and two additional layers until it was just me in a singlet. Luckily we didn’t wear our ski jackets like we originally considered. We obviously aren’t veteran hikers.

The silence was quite staggering. A few times we stopped in our tracks just to listen. There was no breeze, no birds, just the distant trickle of the Snowy River that passed through the valley to our right. We had the entire open space to ourselves and the odd person we could see as a speck in the distance. Before reaching the summit, Rach and I had solved the world’s problems, figured out our survival plan if an apocalypse was to occur and who knows what else.

When we reached the summit, 30 other people suddenly seemed to appear (arriving from a different direction) and we unfortunately had to share the space. Obviously the local Council didn’t get my request to have the mountain to ourselves… We again took a million pictures, then took pictures for other people, then climbed over rocks, walked in circles, ate our packed lunch, watched as two guys cracked beers they pulled from their backpack in celebration, and then turned around for the 9km walk back.

We managed to get back to our motel on shaking legs, with dry lips, burnt skin and the need for a shower. We were pretty proud of ourselves. But first, rest.

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The very beginning…

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Wide open spaces

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Teeny tiny Snowy River

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My favourite (plus a filter to make it extra awesome)

The crowd at the top of Australia

The crowd at the top of Australia

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The view from the top

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Hmm bit chilly?

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The journey back begins

Combine a searing sun, sweat, a bass guitar reverberating through your chest, compulsory black attire and the sweet smell of deep fried goodness and you have Soundwave 2015.

Saturday 28 Feb. I am running around my house wondering why everything is taking so long. Why didn’t I paint my nails yesterday when I was a sloth on the lounge? A faint wave of nausea rolls over me and I know I am stressing myself out (I used to throw up after every birthday party as a kid). I breathe, shove 15 random items of clothing in my bag and speed off to my friend’s place where we will begin our journey to Sydney.

After 2 hours of singing at the top of our lungs, we reach our dive of a hotel in Parramatta and I realise I am starving. It’s lunch time. We have to leave soon. So I eat 2 minute noodles cooked precariously in a hotel coffee mug, slap on some makeup and then we’re outside in the boiling summer sun.

Once we had battled the trains (seriously, how were we meant to get to Olympic Park if it isn’t mentioned on the schedule?), we arrived at our destination along with 50,000 other makeup-clad, spiked-haired, pierced and generally delightful people.

The afternoon melted into one length of time where our feet rarely stopped moving, our muscles cramped, we shouted, sang, and soothed our throats with too much vodka and Redbull. In what felt like quick succession, we were pondering how Faith No More could still be so cool, even when they’re 100 years old, dressed all in white and performing on a stage covered in flowers like a funeral parlour; then next minute we were merrily enjoying a train ride home along with hundreds of other exhausted festival-goers.

At this point in time, I could happily call it quits and go home.

And then day 2 started. I was dreading it internally. How were my poor shaking legs going to handle another 8 hours of standing? We drive to the venue this time and park out in the open and quickly realise it is a million degrees outside. I start to feel sick. Turns out my potato-on-a-stick and a dagwood dog from the day before wasn’t a wholesome meal.

Not long after we go inside and find a relatively clear space to watch Fear Factory, it starts to rain. Not the soft, drizzling rain, but large fat, COLD, rain. It starts to pour and we are running for shelter along with everyone else, leaving the band behind to perform to an empty space. From that point on my shoes squelch with every step, my shorts don’t seem to dry and I am freezing. What better way to fix the situation than to eat another potato-on-a-stick? Maybe I’ll have a pie too.

At the end of the night, when the final song was played and the lights came on, I squinted around at the crowd as they started to dazedly meander towards the door. My legs were locked in place and my muscles once again screamed in protest. Like a herd of sheep, we shuffled out, heads down and tired, and I realised that maybe I am getting too old for this.

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The clouds roll in over the crowd

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Post-rain photo. Why bother doing your hair when it’s just going to be ruined?

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My ‘devil eyes’ on the left fit in well with the interesting crowd

The endless search for inspiration

Finding inspiration in a storm

Finding inspiration in a storm

I have been writing my first novel for what feels like forever. In actual fact, I smashed out 40,000 words in a few months, my tongue between my teeth and my stomach buzzing with excitement. This is happening, I kept thinking to myself. And then all of a sudden, I reached the middle and drew a complete blank. An absolute, stop where you are, blank. That was 6 months ago and I haven’t written since.

I often describe writing at the moment like wading through mud. Every word is a struggle. No matter what I do, I cannot, for the life of me, think of any way to continue the story. It’s like staring into a haze, where the characters don’t really know what they’re doing or who they are. And do I even care?

I’ve read here and there (when tirelessly Googling ‘how to combat writers block’) to put the story down and let it sit. Forget about it even. Supposedly, when I open up my 100-page word document again, it will all come flooding back to me and I will have a renewed sense of motivation and my mind will be teeming with ideas and inspiration.

Like I said, I stopped writing 6 months ago…so things weren’t looking good. I’ve opened that document, read the last chapter, and closed it again.

I recently found, whilst driving home from work, the beginnings of inspiration stir within me. It was windy and the sky was darkening with an oncoming storm. I slipped into a daze as a slow and melodic song came on the radio. Leaves began to fall from the overhead trees and batter my windscreen and before my eyes, my characters manifested. As drizzling rain blurred my vision, I imagined them standing in an open field, wondering about the dangerous future ahead of them. I could see their faces, their creased foreheads from anguish.

Then I turned onto the highway into heavy traffic and the image melted.

Maybe all I needed was a storm after all.

“Don’t Judge a Book by its Cover” – easier said than done

This week at uni I am expected to write a short and witty review on my favourite author. Not their books per se, but them as a writer: their history, achievements, skills etc. Turns out it’s harder than I expected.

I started researching Karen Marie-Moning, author of the New York Times Bestselling Fever series (I was doing this at work of course). As her blog loaded, an enlarged image of the front cover of the latest Fever installment consumed my page – a burley, bare-chested faceless male; the kind of man women swoon over.

My first thought: “Urgh! Why?”

But seriously, why? I am not a prude, don’t get me wrong, but up until now, the entire series’ cover art has encompassed images of gloomy alleyways, street lamps and burning moons, perfectly reflecting the dark storyline within. But why, all of a sudden, do I feel a little embarrassed when I stand in a bookstore holding the book with the half-naked man on the front? Or when I have to quickly close my screen at work before someone chides “whatcha lookin’ at over there?”

I am yet to read the newest instaLlment, even though the series has been an absolute favourite so far. My opinion has dropped a few pegs since seeing the cover, and I reluctantly feel as though the author has jumped on the sexualisation bandwagon and I can only imagine how this has affected her writing style.

This may be an unfair judgement, but to me, first impressions are important.

To Do List: Tomaree Head Summit Walk

So recently, I woke up and realised I am getting old. Just like that. OLD.

OK, so maybe I’m not that old, but sometimes it only takes something small to make you realise that life is passing at a rapid pace. In my case it is due to an upcoming tremulous year of change. I’m not sure if tremulous is the right word but it sounds good so I’m sticking with it. This year, my partner and I could potentially move to a new town, new state, who knows? Because I know that I could be leaving this beautiful place I call home, I’m suddenly desperate to do everything and anything.

To Do List: Climb to the Tomaree Summit – check!

I first stumbled across this ‘trek’ on Instagram. I have a friend who seems to live the high life and she tagged herself at the top. My first thought “damn her and her motivation to do stuff!” Then I came across it on this surprisingly awesome site: http://www.hunterhunter.com.au/

So on Saturday morning, we hit the road, coffee in hand and joggers on. I had expected to be a heaving mess by the end, covered in my own sweat and beetroot red, but turns out the first ten minutes was the hardest part. Twenty minutes later and we were at the top.

I had one of those ‘sigh’ moments at the summit and suddenly wanted to have a ‘deep and meaningful’ about the wonders of the world and the meaning of life, but the short silence was broken by a grating voice behind me shouting, “Look at that dog on the beach!”

So I turned around and trudged back down.

The beginning

The beginning

Almost there

Almost there

My 'sigh' moment

My ‘sigh’ moment

Pondering life...

Pondering life…

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Favourite Words

Creative Wilderness has been an idea brewing for years. What is it? I’m not sure really. I plan to figure it out along the way. I have been discussing this blog expedition with my sister for a while, saying things like “how do I encompass travel, writing, reading, health, and creativity into one blog?” With her response being, “I dunno, just do it!”

I asked another friend through email, “do you have a favourite word? You know, a word that evokes a whole bunch of feelings?” (Because I love asking random questions), and she was like, “um…I’ve never really thought about it.” I imagined she’d be creasing her forehead, wondering why the hell I ask these things.

My favourite words are Magic and Wilderness. Magic reminds me of my childhood and imagination. I think I might get it tattooed somewhere one day… Wilderness makes me think of silence, frost, vast expanses and endless forests. It takes me outside of my menial grey cubicle of a workplace.

Magic Wilderness sounds a little too…hippy, crystal shop, untamed hair etc.

So, Creative Wilderness was born.